Saturday 31 October 2015

Scary Cruise Antics.

Im on a cruise at halloween!
What the heck is my life!!

It is crazy busy on here, but my oh my do I love it!
Judged a costume party and then us crew had a huge party where I got far too intoxicated!
I loved every single bloody moment of it.
I just wish she was here with me, partying the night away, and the cuddling with me in bed afterwards.


Aleida and I. 

Jimmy and I.

Tuesday 27 January 2015

Just, breathe.

Just, breathe. *sound of breath in and out*
Just, breathe. *sound of breath in and out*
Fresh air, the chemical that fills our lungs and makes us alive.
Our first breath.
Our final gasp.
The passing of muttering between two people all from the air we breathe.

Sometimes it can feel like your suffocating in the air that pollutes our lungs.
From smoking or even the fumes from passing cars as we lay our heads each night.

We breathe the same air and live completely different lives,
you look at us and just pass by.

Yet I deserve no less air than you, my lungs aren't as healthy, my life not as great.
I am happy, you think you see sadness in my eyes, but I see nothing but joy in my life.

He shows me love, and how beautiful the word is, he tells me to breath and really enjoy the smell of the world.

Show me you're alive when your chest rises up and down and up and down, so cold that I see every exhale of air.

In through the nose and out through the mouth,
*sound of breath in and out*

The sweet smell of the air by a river or the sea, the slight saltiness on your lips, as you intake the cold sharp breath.

Make every breath calm, close your eyes and imagine the world a simple place where everything goes back to when you were a baby again.

The stale short breathes, increase the heart rate, it makes you see rage. The passion in someones eyes when they speak and gasp for air to complete there next sentence.

Just take time with each every sip of air you get.

Just, breathe *sound of breath in and out*


Sunday 25 January 2015

Truly Disconnect.

To truly disconnect with this, I have to truly say how I feel. 

I love you. 

Do with that how you feel. 
But it needs to be said. 
I'd do anything for you.