Hearing that. broke me.

Its been ages but thinking back a few months to that time when you broke down and cried down the phone to me and how it broke me into near tears, feeling shittiest I ever have. I refuse to ever bring anyone to that again. It is why now I am so nice, I'd rather cry, than bring someone to doing so. Shedding a tear over someone is horrible but someone over you is the worst feeling ever.

List it.

1 - Finish my college work.

2 - Get in the bath

3 - Do a hair treatment on my hair

4 - Shave my legs

5 - Paint my toe and finger nails orange

6 - Set my stuff out for tomorrow

7 - Pack a bag with everything i need for tomorrow

8 - Sort out my college work in my folder

9 - Text my friends, who said there and give them some details.

10 - Get some sleep.

+ Ed Sheeran -U.N.I

U.N.I

I found your jumper on my bed,
The only evidence that youve been there before,
And i dont get waves of missing you anymore,
They're more like tsunami tides in my eyes
Never getting dry, ill never get high, sleep in the day then I sit at night with the light on
Weeks pass in the blink of an eye,
And I'm still drunk by the end of the night
I do drink like everybody else,
End up forgetting things about myself,
I'm stubborn I'm forward heads just blocked
My heads still with you and my heart kind of is too

So am I close to you anymore, now it's over
And there's no chance that we'll work it out
That's why you and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but your the only one that knows I cried
You and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but your the only one that knows I cried

Everybody said that we'll never be together and I knew that,
I never wanna settle down, come around, break up the love like lego now,
Never wanna turn into another like you,
Sleep with my thoughts dance with my views,
Everythings great but everythings short,
But you live in your halls and I live in a house in ebourne,
Now I'm in position to be another staker and every thing I say seems to always sound akward,
Like our last kiss it was perfect, but we were tired and drunk,
On the surface,
And I'm always saying everyday that it was worth it,
Pain is only relevent if it still hurts,
I forget like an elephant, or we can use a sedative and go back to the day we kissed in the sea it was...

So am I close to you anymore, now it's over
And there's no chance that we'll work it out
That's why you and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but your the only one that knows I cried
You and I ended over U N I
And I said that's fine, but your the only one that knows I cried

Because, if I was gunna go somewhere, I'd be there by now,
And maybe I can let myself down, ohh
And thinking I am unaware, I keep my feet on the ground, keep looking around, to make sure I'm not, the only one to feel low,
Because if you want, I'll take you in my arms and keep you sheltered, from all that ever's gone wrong
And I know you'll say, that I'm not the one
But I know that god made another one of me, thats from your world to relate with.

Sorry. Im getting a bit weird, ill stop now.
Changed Lyrics.

Star Signs.

I know i like someone when i either ask them what there sign is, hint for them to tell me or just look at there birthday or I'm just generally intrigued cause thinking that i ask my friends there star signs all the time aha. so many people don't believe Star Signs and about Spirt's life after to death, each to there own, but I do, big time, and it really annoys me when people are like its a load of crap you're an idiot, its an opinion a view on life that different than there's doesn't mean it wrong. So people stop telling me to not believe because you think that's a stupid idea, its the idea of it all that has me in such a trance. I don't agree with what you think but you don't see me running up towards you telling you, that you are wrong and there is nothing to do with how the stars and the moon and the planets are placed that has anything to with compatibility, for me it does and call me whatever you please, but its all chemistry which is down to the people and the character and star signs are spot on when it comes to how some people are.

<3

Im coming up!

I'm more determined than I've ever been, no one can bring me down for the amount of will I've got right now, I refuse to let myself think I'm not good enough, I have confidence...Bring it on!

Forgetting everything in the past!

Work more, Play less!

Friends and Family!

College, Uni, Singing, Drama, Piano!

Feeling Happy.

At you.

If you haven't already yet, then look at your one.

Black. Creepy Stuff.

 I do spend my money on silly things, but i don't care when i have money ill do whatever with it, when its gone its gone meh whatever. But anyway i bought some black eye contacts ;) oh Halloween shall be good this year.

In the Box

Can you tell ?

Quite Near

Really Close!

Have i got the peircing bug.

I got my ears done last week and since then i wanted another piercing. Me and trussell were talking of getting dermal's in our hips and made a whole big thing about it and walked through most of the lesson with our belly's out, in the end this resulted in us getting them, i only got one and trussell got two...well mine went inside my belly, and i panicked like a little bitch...no joke. For anyone who saw me got my texts you would understand how much I was freaking out. Well I've got it sorted now, i went back and he put a new one in :) ...

And now i want another dermal and my tragus done in my ear :)

FEEEEED

<-------------FEED MY FISHES PEOPLE :D

Grasp them they might not be here forever.

All we ever do in life, is look or search for something...do we belong. No body belongs in anything, but yet no body doesn't not belong. There is one place that you will always belong, your own body. There's nothing you can do to change that, so be happy with what you've got, who you've got, people seem to forget the people around them and don't appreciate them to the full level or advantage they forget that they had trust, and now are untrustworthy. Grasp the people you love, there alive and well okay not everyone some people are ill just be fucking grateful that there not how many feet under, there here still speaking and laughing and crying and every emotion in the book, there the same people they were 4,5,6...years ago not everyone has that.

I'm Grateful that 10 years ago my dad pulled through and didn't slip away, I'm Grateful that my mums here and didn't leave from everything that has happened, I'm Grateful that my sister is still here and I'm Grateful that my brother blessed us with his presence. People don't appreciate anymore and its sad to see someone so special being taken for granted.

Who.What.Where.When.Said.How.Why.

Every part of me wishes, that was me. Every part of me wishes, that wasn't me. Up and Down. Under and Over. It seems I'll be living the topsy turling way for a while, never know if I'm coming or going. Who am I supposed to be. Where am I supposed to be going. When am I there. What am I saying or doing. How is it possible. What has been said or what am I going to say. Why am I doing it? 7 Questions I often ask my self in any situation to help see light, but at the moment I'm in a never ending black tunnel and haven't a clue when I'm coming out.

Lets fly, fly away.

'Come Fly With Me' -

As soon as the song starts with some sort of wind instrument and then Frank Sinatra starts to sing i feel like it should be snowing outside, the trees up, there's carol singers walking the streets and everyone spirits are high and excitable in time for Christmas...Why does this song give me feelings of Christmas i don't know. But its safe to say, if i don't hear this over the Christmas period, i get a little down. I think the reason i relate it to Christmas, the films. Frank Sinatra is always played in the end or the start of Christmassy films.
Bring on another year full of giving smiles laughter hot chocolates fluffy socks wrapping up warm cuddles and tingling kisses <3

I'll Leave you to enjoy the awesome voice of Frankie!

+

The City Never Sleeps, Then That Makes Two.

My all time Favourite song!

We do it all,

Everything,

On our own.

We dont need,

Anything,

Or anyone.

If I Lay here,

If I just lay her,

Would you lie with me and just forget the world.

I dont quite know,

How to say,

How I feel.

Those three words,

Are said too much,

There not enough.

If I lay here,

If I just lay here,

Would you lie with me and just forget the world,

Forget what were told,

Before we get too old,

Show me a garden thats bursting into life.

Lets waste time,

Chasing cars,

Around our head.

I need your grace,

To remind me,

To find my own.

If I lay here,

If I just lay here,

Would you lie with me and just forget world,

Forget what were told,

Before we get too old,

Show me a garden thats bursting into life.

All that I am,

All that I ever was,

Is here in your perfect eyes there all I can see.

I dont where,

Confused about how as well,

Just know that these things will never change for us at all.

If I lay here,

If I just lay here,

Would you lie with me and just forget the world.

Written From Memory. <3

Paramore,

You Are The Only Exception.

Everyone's Growing UP!

Its the year all my school friends start to turn 18, with a few already passing by like Trussell's Marika's and Wilkins's today its Rosie's and to celebrate were all going out for a meal, I'm overly excited to spend some time with my girls, its been too long, and I miss them son of bitches. I'm wishing Rosie the most awesome 18th ever which I'm sure she will have, and that tonight will be a blast.

Its sad that I'm such a late birthday, I couldn't care less about the drinking I just want to be able to go out and be there with my friends to celebrate there birthday, but that's what I get for being born in July.

I feel sick, let me off the ride.

The last couple of weeks I've been on a emotional roller coaster, some stuff happened that I didn't think would ever happen to me, I've watched it happen to others, but I always said nah ill never let myself get like that. I did. It hurt. Recently again I started to go up and things got better and it was like I put a pair of Rocket boots on I was flying high like never before, then *snap* like that my boots ran out petrol and I plummeted to the ground again with an almighty thud and felt worse than I originally did, I slowly am again coming back up but this time I'm not gonna let anything bring me down, its my life, ill live it how I want too.

Life or Death

I find my biggest task at the moment is to get out of bed, I just cant get out, ten minutes before i leave i think ugh i should get out so then i do but meh its soooo much effort.

Jenna Marbles

This girl is

1. Hot!

2. Funny

3. So True

...Enjoy and subscribe her too funny too miss out!

Friends + Krushems = Bliss!

So today, i was thee most miserable bitch going...EVER. I was tired bored irritable just ugh and meh!

and i would of been till i went to bed, until i got a phone call from Misses Rachel O'Reilly asking if i was in and to come outside as her and Misses Laura Woodgates were outside, so i went outside and they come and brought me a Krushem (Maltesers <3) and it was the cutest most kindest thing someone as done for me for so long, they didn't have to come to mine and do that, we then just sat in Laura's car and just seeing them made me automatically happy so we chimwagged etc, i then like a nice person invited them in and we sat in my games room (2nd living room) and just had a few giggles, with Mista Christopher Simpson, we carried on chimwagging we all got invited to the cinema by Mista Alex Trussell and Mista Samuel Owen but i really didn't feel like it but Chris went out so Laura and Rachel stayed a little longer and we spoke more about the weekend coming up and all of our plans for it, and yeh. I don't think I've laughed like that in a long time where its not me being silly but just laughing with my friends and just having a giggle <3

I Love My Friends More Than Life Itself!!

Ugh

Looking round my room and realising you're a lazy bitch. SORT IT OUT!

Ive never been happy with my weight my figure my hair my eyes my nose my mouth my teeth my ears my feet my hands my stomach my legs my arms my boobs my back my bum my thighs my calves my toes my nails my anything you can think of.

Ive always thought it always will, but to frank who doesn't, and you can either moan about it for the rest of your god damn days or do something about it, I've decided i will change the things i can due to determination and will power. I can change my weight my figure my hair my teeth my stomach my legs my arms my boobs my back my bum my thighs my calves my nails. others although i dislike them i wouldn't change them for the world they make me...well me.

We all have insecurities some more than others, and i don't care what you say i simply couldn't believe you if you turned and said you didn't, even if a beauty spot on a part of your body that you don't like.

Fat skinny curvy...no matter what you are

Be proud and if you don't like it change it!

If you don't love your body don't expect anyone else to either.

Get a new wardrobe, a different style maybe a different colour, change something so you add a bit of spice back to what you look like.

Even new socks makes anyone feel good.

Be whoever you want to be, don't let anybody stop you, you can only make the decision you want to, listen to your head not there's.

To round this up basically I'm getting a personal trainer and i refuse to eat the shit I've been eating, my diet is disgusting, it will explain why I'm always tired or grumpy, i need to eat properly.

So goodbye, grumpy tired overweight unhealthy ill Tiff

And Hello happy energetic on weight healthy Tiffany Robinson

Cant.
- Say it
- Scream it
- Silence it
- Make it
- Feel it
- Bring it
- Hold it
- Bite it
- Breath it
- Smell it
- Hear it
- Lick it
- Love it
- Hate it
- Loathe it

What do you think it is?

P + C ' S - eventhoughivemademymind up

Staying in Eastbourne

Pros -

Get a parent free house for the weekend

Have no curfew (this is a big deal for me :D)

Get to see Hannah as shes back from uni

Get to see court as she too is back from uni 

get to get shit faced if i want too :)

Cons -

Its boring in eastbourne

Ill be doing the same old same old

I have to clean my room

I have no money

I will get nothing bought for me.

Going to Northampton

Pros - 

I get to see all my family

I get to spend time with my parents

I will do a lot of coursework on my way there and back

I get things bought for me

I will get money

I get out of eastbourne

Cons -

Ill be the only singleton at my cousins engagement party

Ill be the youngest

Unable to drink

Will be on my own most of the time

Ill be bored.

Imagine

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

eveeening :)

Before i go to bed i have resulted into sitting on my bed in boxers and a top, going through photos...This has been happening for the last week maybe week and a half. :|

Two Balls, Three Balls, Four Balls..MORE!

Ive never been any really good at juggling, but recently I've been good at juggling life, College, My job, Coursework, Seeing my friends, Driving, Signing and rehearsals but whilst I have been doing that I'm forgetting vital things like Eating sleeping excersing and resting.

I need to learn to stop taking too much on and give myself a break, i will die of exahuastion.

cant even spell today!

Predictable.

Too used to getting fucked over, urgh. routine.

TooRight.

'Whats the fun in being predictable' ;)