Monday 18 August 2014

Reasoning.

I am someone that believes there is a reason behind everything.
So there is a reason you didn't get the certain grade you wanted,
there is a reason you and someone didn't work out,
and even a reason of why someone dies.

It's hard to think like that, that in the very moment, when you feel crushed, let down and upset. That there is a reason as to why its happened. Hell I am someone who will preach that saying yet when it comes to moments when someone is taken from you, I cant imagine why that would be.

The older I become, the more life I see, and the more people I say my goodbyes to, makes me realise how much I live on that saying. Fate is Fate, if things are supposed to happen then they will, it might not be the right time, but if doesn't happen there is a reason for it. You may not see it then, but eventually you will.

I am someone that tries to take as much inspiration out of a sticky situation or and awkward moment. I try and relish in that feeling, and annoyingly for myself I bathe in it and relive that horrible put in my stomach or that sense on uneasiness.

I write songs, so all those moments that I capture and try and relive I express great in lyrics, sometimes my lyrics never see the light of the day, either I cant find a tune to go with them. But when I write its the truth, I just write out in essays and hope that I come up with something out of all the mess I write.

People often ask me where the ideas to write come from, you have to so much of your personal life (well I do.) I always find myself get a little hurt when someone does like a song, not for the sound of it or my voice, but the words. Because for me that is my soul that they say they don't agree with, and its hard to hear.

But it is beyond amazing when someone turns to you and say "I know exactly that feeling." It's something quite powerful, that can honestly (not even being dramatic about this) bring me to slight tears. That feeling that those emotions that you have to relive each time you start writing or each time you sing a certain song, that they touched someone, they were the exact feelings someone else has felt, and they connect with you over that.

It truly is something.

There's a reason I write songs about certain things, because some of the emotions I have inside are so raw and real that it just links with everyone. 

Sunday 10 August 2014

Upfront much!!

Sometimes I wish people were more upfront about things.
Just tell me what you feel. Say I fucking hate you and think you're arrogant prick if that's what you think then release yourself from having to watch your mouth.
If you want to tell someone that there amazing then just tell them.
Why are we all so scared about it, I can understand some could lead to confrontation but if we never took risks then where would we be!?
Starting tomorrow I'm just doing I'm gonna be damn down upfront with people.
So unless you don't want my full opinion of you tomorrow, then don't come near me!