Am I addicted to her?

Its like this whirlwind blowing and pushing me higher and harder, like i'm spiralling out of control. that indescribable feeling that nothing could take you down. You're not just on top of the world but instead on top of the universe. Shouting from the rooftops, whispering from the gutters. 

When i'm around her its like I'm on some sort of E. This constant buzz, i just wanna touch her, feel the electricity that I can sense. 

Tonight when she came in we didn't kiss for ages, but when we did kiss, it was really intense and I felt that butterfly flutter all the way up my centre and coming out of the top of my head, like i was bursting with a greater passion I'd ever had. I always get butterflies or goosebumps when she's around, her gentle touch, the faces she does, her she just sends me high. 

I've come to this conclusion of am I obsessed with this feeling, like it makes me feel so good, its like exercising. When you start to exercise again, after not doing for ages, you get this goal this buzz, to better each time. Just keep going keep going and every time you go to the gym you feel pumped and ready to fuck shit up. 

Well thats exactly how i feel when she's around, it feels like I'm running and each time i see her i get further and further from where i originally started.There are always bumps or diverted routes so sometimes getting to that place is harder but i get there. 

I guess you could call it the climax. Finishing. I actually don't mean this in a rude way, but sometimes climx can mean anything, finishing a book you've been reading for days. Or finally finish an essay you've been writing all night 9this my life at the moment!! with which I should be doing an essay now.) Climax with her yes can be sex, like I seem to hungry for all the time, like some sort of savage beast thats never had meat. Thats not a nice image but thats kind of what I feel like at the moment. :/. Sometimes though climax with her, can be cuddling or giving her a massage so that i send her off on a good sleep. Lame some might say, but just the way she snuggles and buries her head into your neck is just the best. 

I guess I am kind of obsessed with just being around her.

So much as just smelling her or having her hand my leg, can send me places I have never been. That aftershave she wears, that is sort of peppery but just makes me want to grab her and slam her against a wall. 

:) 

fuck. shit. love. yes.