I don't want it back.

You know when someone gives you something back of yours and you just don't want it back. 

Either its in bad condition so you're like no way!! 

In that rare case though you actually just want them to have it. 

I have a returned item that I don't want. 

Something in me, that I want someone else to have. 

People are looking for the item that was returned but I don't want to give it to anyone. 

Just you. 

Now readers either you're smart and you've figured out what I'm talking about. 

Or you haven't really thought about it and you're wondering. 

Well.. if you read my previous post form the other day 'Come and Go,' then you would know I had my heart returned. 

But theres this sticky situation, I don't want it. The only reason for me to have it back would be to give it to someone else, but I definitely don't want that. Now its that weird thing, my heart was returned by I don't have it still. No matter how many times she could bring it back to me, it will firmly be with her. 

I cant seem to get over this girl, and normally that would infuriate me, but I'm just seeing what its like. Ive never had this sort of break up and it feels weird, but its actually refreshing coming out of it, without wanting to harm them. 

I still love her madly and I would jump at the chance to be with her again, I cant help it. I always thought it would be weak of a person to still wait around or have something for someone after they'd broken up still, but now. Now I realise why. 

I guess its not fully sinking in to my head because theres a part of me that hopes that she still sees me as more as a friend. Even that 5% keeps the fire lit. She have to physically see me and tell me to leaver her alone, for me to ever listen and leave her alone. 

I still want to fight for her as I have so much left in me, but I won't because it isn't the right time. 

Theres only so much holding on a person can do. 

Either way I can do more.