Come and go.

Things in life they come and they go. 

People in life they come and they go. 

So how do you do stop that process, how do you continue to have someone in your life. Can you do anything to stop it? or is it just life that people will forever come and go.

For example, I talk to about a handful of people I went to secondary school with, that to me feels quite bizarre because I went through school without a care in the world. Thinking some of the friends that I made at school I would be friends with for at least another ten years!! 

I speak to a fair few more people I went to college with, a lot of them are still in my life and I try and stay in contact with them, not so much when I'm at uni as it is quite hard but when I come home I try and see everyone that I want too. 

Sometimes you can drift away from someone but then weirdly you come in connection again. I think that part is truly the amazing. 

How you can spend close to three years not really talking to someone then meet one day and suddenly its like nothing changed. 

I recently had something returned to me, my heart. Now I know that sounds a tad lame but its true, my heart was kindly given back to me. I don't begrudge this girl, and I far from hate her. Of course I still love her and I'd drop anything if she called me crying. 

The relationship didn't work, and I don't wanna go into too much, I know why it didn't work and I understand that. 

Me being me, I'm a bit of a hopeless romantic. Although a part of me used to think I was a realist I know I'm not. I'm hopelessly romantic from the big organs in my body to the tiny little standing strands of hair on my arms and neck.

So she really did make me into a better person, like I finally got things sorted, hell she inspired me and I like to hope I inspired her a little also. Today I did something I put off for years, okay I wasn't successful but I had to prove it to myself that I could do it. If it wasn't for her though, I don't think I would of initially said yes. 

I have a lot to thank her for, she has really opened my eyes, to see life in a different picture, hell I have been downright shit about the breakup but in myself I am happy. I'm no longer down. 

I haven't felt like this in a long time. 

So the outcome of this, is. She came into my life when I needed her most and she helped me, and now she's kind of gone, but I think/hope that she will be back in my life again soon, even if its not romantically/sexually.. because she's someone that everyone needs. I only hope that one day when she's in time of need I can return the favour.
I guess you can say there will forever be a special little fire in my heart for her, for helping me along my journey.

I dont do names in my posts.

But.

I will always thank you for all you ever done and will do.
Sophie.