Still that growing butterfly.

So, when you start speaking to someone, you get all these rush of feelings and emotions that you didn't think were possible since your previous relationship. You start to feel invincible again like no one could bring you off this high. Yet you still feel a tad un easy about trusting someone intimately. You put this barrier, this block up to protect yourself from whatever you think may harm you. When really the only thing harming you is you. You eventually over time have that wall taken down. You start to open up and trust this other person you have spent so much time with over such little time. They make you laugh and smile, and you could swear you'd never laughed this much. 

They create this special bond, that emotionally lifts you out of this world, and you know what physically as well!! You could fit a thousand wars for this person, and you would get in the way of anyone harming them, regardless of how big they are and how little you are. 

You begin to realise, that these feelings, this little caterpillar thats been squirming away in your stomach for the last two months is growing, and it come out of that cocoon and has learnt to fly. These tiny seed has blossomed. Before you know it, you've found that you are starting to fall for this other person. You want to just look at them all the time, to see them smile or hear them laugh. That smell (you know what I'm on about) You cannot describe it ever, but its just them in everything. On there clothes, on there skin, on there sheets.

I recently have had this, a flourishing new relationship that makes me feel so alive. Not so much though when i haven't seen her for near three weeks, yeah that sucks!! 

I guess this post is to let my readers know, that I found someone who really cares about me, I've never had someone talk about me the way she does. I've never felt so special to someone, and someone has never felt so special to me. 

It's early times, we haven't really been going long, but I know, that this time, this life i'm living doesn't feel like a waste with her. 

My reflections on myself in a relationship is maybe that I don't talk enough, but I'm trying to force myself to do so. 

Her, yeah she's probably the best thing to happen to me in the year of 2013.

I've fallen in love with a perfectly, imperfect, geeky, funny and beyond beautiful girl.