In just a couple of days we embark on a new year full of laughter, shame, upset, and down right shit times!! But we know that, so why do we get so annoyed at the end of the current year saying stuff like "it's been a shit year and I've realised all I can count on is myself" I swear you've said that two years on the trot.
So I've never been a big fan of quotes or saying but I've especially always hated when people have said the saying new year new me, no because you will always be that neurotic arsehole that nobody likes. I've never said this saying, it's been such a weird thing for me.
2014 coming up though.. I've never thought and felt the way I do right now, I turn 20 next year (that's not old, I know, but that's a quarter of my life, gone. Vanished vaullah!!) I also start my final year at uni.. There are so many events next year that I can't wait to see.. Some of my friends even turn 21.
Now I always swore I would never say the saying 'New Year, New Me.' But this year I can't help but feel a little like that, I wanna hit hard into 2014, go in to the next year with a better outlook on life, I always thought I was quite an optimistic person, to my surprise I was recently told that's not actually the case. Sometimes your own thoughts and perception can fog up what you actually see and do. I sat here basically thinking I was a happy, laid back girl. I found out I was a bloody stress head, who over thinks and over worries!! Like heck yeah!!
I have however noticed that some of my senses are heightened for example I can pretty much see a lesbian a mile off, which yes did help me a lost in the last year. But also, I can pretty much tell when anyone and everyone's lying. If there trying to test me I don't normally notice, but if someone's actually trying to hide something or bend the truth I can always tell. I never voice that I think there lying I feel in time they will tell me, but till then I never truly trust them. Which can be really frustrating when you want to put your trust in someone but you have that barrier.
Most of all out of everything I'd say this year was a lucky one. Yeah shit happened, like everyone has but I have two parents who are alive and well, siblings who are also the same, myself I am finally making a better recovery with my kidneys, it's been 4 months since the pain, so that's good!! I finished my first year at uni, I moved into my own house with friends, I had a fun year, an to end the year off I leave 2013 with a girlfriend.
I wouldn't say I'm a sop, but damn. This girl makes me feel and say things that make me feel weak. I ain't ever had feelings like this before. I thought my past relationships were something special, but this girl proves that this isn't the case. I can actually sit in pure silence with her, and not even be bothered. I can't go into detail too much, because she's in bed next to me all snuggled up and I'd much rather go back and snuggle her than write more.
THANKYOU 2013.
So I've never been a big fan of quotes or saying but I've especially always hated when people have said the saying new year new me, no because you will always be that neurotic arsehole that nobody likes. I've never said this saying, it's been such a weird thing for me.
2014 coming up though.. I've never thought and felt the way I do right now, I turn 20 next year (that's not old, I know, but that's a quarter of my life, gone. Vanished vaullah!!) I also start my final year at uni.. There are so many events next year that I can't wait to see.. Some of my friends even turn 21.
Now I always swore I would never say the saying 'New Year, New Me.' But this year I can't help but feel a little like that, I wanna hit hard into 2014, go in to the next year with a better outlook on life, I always thought I was quite an optimistic person, to my surprise I was recently told that's not actually the case. Sometimes your own thoughts and perception can fog up what you actually see and do. I sat here basically thinking I was a happy, laid back girl. I found out I was a bloody stress head, who over thinks and over worries!! Like heck yeah!!
I have however noticed that some of my senses are heightened for example I can pretty much see a lesbian a mile off, which yes did help me a lost in the last year. But also, I can pretty much tell when anyone and everyone's lying. If there trying to test me I don't normally notice, but if someone's actually trying to hide something or bend the truth I can always tell. I never voice that I think there lying I feel in time they will tell me, but till then I never truly trust them. Which can be really frustrating when you want to put your trust in someone but you have that barrier.
Most of all out of everything I'd say this year was a lucky one. Yeah shit happened, like everyone has but I have two parents who are alive and well, siblings who are also the same, myself I am finally making a better recovery with my kidneys, it's been 4 months since the pain, so that's good!! I finished my first year at uni, I moved into my own house with friends, I had a fun year, an to end the year off I leave 2013 with a girlfriend.
I wouldn't say I'm a sop, but damn. This girl makes me feel and say things that make me feel weak. I ain't ever had feelings like this before. I thought my past relationships were something special, but this girl proves that this isn't the case. I can actually sit in pure silence with her, and not even be bothered. I can't go into detail too much, because she's in bed next to me all snuggled up and I'd much rather go back and snuggle her than write more.
THANKYOU 2013.
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