Hard to hear.

"Drunk minds speak sober thoughts"

This is a saying I've heard too much of. When I try and justify my drunk actions this is what I link it with. I wouldn't of done certain actions if I didn't want to get some sort of reaction or outcome from it.

So when someone else says something to you when there drunk then what do you think. What kind of outcome and reaction are you looking for. In what way do you want me to act. Sometimes signals are so hard to read, it completely confuses my brain.

"You need to find someone better"

What does anyone mean by this, in what way do you want me to react? Tell you no I can't find much better, because you're as good as they get. Or is this a sly way of telling me to leave you alone and just completely back down and stop giving you so much of my time and attention.

I like you, why would I want to find anyone that maybe be better, I'm someone that likes to live slightly in the moment, in this current I like you. So just let me do that, or if you don't want me to then make it quite clear thats how you feel. I'll leave you alone if thats what you want. I wont sit there and mourn of whatever has been and gone or could of been, I just get over it. 

"Why do you like me?"

Again, what the hell does someone mean when they say something like this. Why do you like me, is that you fishing for compliments, for me to give you reason upon reason of why I like you, of the reason that your smile sends me completely weak and I fall deep within your eyes. Or is this a rhetorical question and you're saying all this as I kind of, look at me why the hell do you like me.. You often say how confusing you are. But I couldn't care, let me make my choices. 

If you think the choices I am making, by sitting and spending time with you or trying to think of more ways to make you smile, then tell me. I don't want to keep being told by the person that I'm utterly falling for that I am making the wrong decisions by deciding to get with you.

Let me make what you think are bad decisions by myself, just let me make them. Stop trying to protect me from getting hurt by it all, I'm a big girl, its not like I've never been hurt before.

In the all, these two quote lines were said in a drunken conversation. So sober would you say these same things to me, would you turn and ask me why do you like me.. or say You need to find someone better.. than who, better than you. I don't want to, thats why. I don't want to look for something that could be better, I've got you here now, and I'm enjoying whatever ever this is. I don't care what it is. 

At first I wanted some sort of label, but I just enjoy spending time with you, I don't want to put a name on that, just to signify it for everyone else. I'm happy with where I am at the moment, a little bit of clarity would be nicer, but I'm fine.

I dont want to ruin what we have just by sticking something to it. When I know what you mean to me, why should I have to prove that to anyone else with something that pretty much is just a word.