Im ill.

So I'm always complaining about how ill i am, then get over it in a few days, so its a cold or a bunged up nose, but I've never once at college taken a day off due to me being ill. Today was the first day. Wow I'm ill, and i haven't been this ill since about 2008, Ive got a throat infection a constant migraine, I'm weak can hardly walk, sleep for most of the night and day, cant breath speak or swallow because of my throat. Have a busted lip, reasons will stay anonymous...anyone that asks i will just tell them i bit it...when really its not that, and rather me just being clumsy. I'm cold and hot then cold then hot then cold then hot, but constantly have a temperature. I cant eat and even drinking water makes me want to vom. Its amazing what stress can do to you, its been a bad last month and all i need is my friends and family as I'm falling into a hole that I'm struggling to get out of. People are constantly telling me there worried. Teachers, Family, Friends. Wheres my character gone. Last year i would never of broke down crying to my teacher or in fact told them everything, But one of them, shes knows all the right things to say and within seconds I'm holding back my tears and biting my tongue trying to not myself go. I'm strong, I'm proud, I wont break. I wont let someone break me (too late.). I cant be this anymore, this person wallowing in self pity. I have so many things to look forward to, why am i being a negative person. My family are healthy happy loving and here for me. My friends are healthy happy loving and are here for me too. I need to let go of my pityness and neglect and bring back Tiff of 2010/2011. I refuse to be this bum. After having about 14 hours of sleep last night, I'm hoping to get back on track!!

Get back on this hype!

I Can do this.

I Will do this.