I am playing me.

My head has so many emotions, I never know whether im coming or going. I feel like a clown, one minute im laughing and having an amazing time, then one thing boom straight down into a miserable wretch. If anyone knows me well enough they know I literally live my life by my horoscope "What are you an idiot, they are fake." I am a Leo a charismatic, outgoing, confident, stubborn, sign. Yet I do not really fit to this"list" of traits. I follow every account I can for Leo tweeting and retweet them, when i need to feel a bit better about myself, recently its been like "Leo - Loves being the center of attention at a party and they are, the own it.' Or Leo - Has everyone after them' 'Leo - Are such style icons everyone looks to them for inspiration.' 

If anyone knows me they know any of that is not true. 

The only people I seem to have after me are stalker weirdos that wont back off. 

This is what Im talking about my emotion at the moment is low, and a little selfish. Im just so low on confidence and self esteem, that I cannot take banter anymore.

I could have taken this two months ago, but now.

Any slight of banter that's gonna crush my ego hurts. 

Im not a good singer, people just make me out to be better than I am, stop over rating me. I do my YouTube video for people to give me feedback for me to improve. I don't put it on for me to go "look how GOOD I AM mwhhahaha" that's just not me. I'd much rather someone write a comment saying

Im just as good an actor than anyone else, Im not very strong at it.

My dance is not all too good, I know that, we all know that.

Im not the brightest match in box, Im quite dumb, on general knowledge, Im literally clueless.

Im not funny, just sarcastic.

Im not much of a looker, and I have a lot of leftover weight that isn't needed.

But all in all.

Im me, and you got to love what you've been given. 

Im just the average girl from Eastbourne, that's has college 5 days a week no job and lives with her family. Nothing special about it.

(My comment about if people could give me feedback of improvement, can you on this video, thank you.)

Thank you, you beautiful lot.